hello.
today - first day of february.
i really want to write through this month.
this morning, i ate oatmeal with blueberries and drank coffee, of course.
i erased january from the dry-erase calendar in my kitchen at home and wrote in "February" and numbered the days. i wrote just a few of the events of the month on the calendar, and will write more in this evening.
once at work, i hung up a february calendar on my door and arranged a few happy bits around it.
i feel some apprehension about this month. there are things to look forward to, but most of what will be wonderful in the moment will also be endings to some of the happiest parts of the last few years for isaac - and for all of us. high school hockey will come to an end with the state tournament the last weekend of this month.
by the end of this month, i will be one year away from the functional neurological event i lived through last february twenty-second. that feels like quite a milestone.
this morning, my friend michelle shared a line from a book she is reading - “the beauty of the word sometimes, how sometimes evens us out, keeps us in the comfortable middle rather than dangling on one end of the spectrum or the other, hanging on for dear life. It helps us escape from the tyranny of black-or-white thinking.” this resonated with me quickly as i read it. i will try to come back to unpacking this a bit sometime this month.
for now, i have work to do - a very full list of to-dos and meetings today and thursday and friday. but i will try to write every day this month. cheers to goal. cheers to hopes. cheers to february.