bits of sunshine

febraury not-quite practice

i had grand plans to write almost every day this month . . . 

and here it is, february 20, and i have written five posts - this will be number six . . . 

this morning, i was thinking about these pages, and wanting to keep writing here. i was thinking about an instagram friend who writes ten things every day - one word, one line, one thought, one short paragraph. lists of ten to track her days. she has written ten thousand nine hundred twenty-six lists of ten. 

so, ten, today:

1. i am a firm believer in cake, pie, cookies, crumbles, desserts of all sorts as breakfast food

2. more viatmin d. and more vitamin d. how much vitamin d supplement will make up for the hours and hours of sunshine that i soak up in the summertime? one of my best medical friends is working on helping me figure that out! 

3. i finished reading The Midnight Library [by Matt Haig] this morning. honest review - i loved all of it except about twenty pages in the middle where it just seemed to be going on without going anywhere - which i think is actually the way you are supposed to feel when you are reading that part of the book . . . there's some really, really good stuff about life in this book. and there's also some really good storytelling. i recomend reading it.  

4. this afternoon, ben and i made a shopping list and then went to walmart. we bought a LOT of vitamins and we bought food that we know will make us feel good. 

5. this morning, i gave both ben and i haircuts with my very fancy scissors that my friend ashley gave me for christmas. 

6. this afternoon, my uncle dave called me and talked at me about all kinds of things - his neighbor who brought him christmas cookies and who comes to view his slide shows now, hikes that he took a quarter-century ago [in 1997 - why does he have to say "a quarter-century ago? that makes me feel like i am getting old], the techniques that won both WW1 and WW2 [or was it the Civil War and WW2?], the possibility of hauntings, the exact elevation of certain mountain tops and mountain passes, and a myriad of other interesting [and not-so-interesting] topics. 

7. my valentine boquet is still actually quite lovely.

8. i kept all the lamps on in the living room all day today, becuase it was so grey and drab outside. 

9. i am slightly cold, even though i have a wool sweater on and am under a blanket. i think i maybe need to eat some warm food.

10. maddie sent me an audio message this afternoon - she had made gluten free muffins and was about to bring some by to share with me when she realized she had used regular milk - and that was disappointing to her. i love that she thought of me. and that she sent a audio message, not just a text. i sent her an audio message back. i like her so much. 

and with that - ten. i'll add a picture or two and post this. 

love you, friends. so much love to you. 

 

february thirteenth

how to even begin with a recap of friday night’s game ???

the game started out with everybody in a strange headspace because it was senior night -and we have six seniors on our team - so we had all these plans for “cool senior night stuff” . the guys were also defending a undefeated season. we went into that game 18-0 .

the stands were completely full and there were people standing two deep all around the whole rink, and our boys didn’t play their best hockey for period one and part of period two . sometime in period two, they started to look more like themselves . 

we were down by 1 or 2 most of the game and finally tied it at 3-3 with just over three minutes left in the game - so we went into overtime and no one scored . their goalie had some incredible saves .

then a shootout -
they made one, Mason made one .
they made one, Kevin made one .
our goalie blocked, their goalie blocked .
our goalie blocked, their goalie blocked .
our goalie blocked . . .
and then Isaac was out on the ice
i knew he would make it, but i could not watch
i put my head in my hands
and Isaac so confidently skated down and put that puck in the net - to win the game!!

the place erupted in the loudest noise and cheering .

one of Isaac’s very first coaches was there and he said that moment will forever hold a place in his heart .

mine, too . because it was so much more than Isaac putting a puck in a net .
there were thousands of hours of effort and hard work by Isaac and so many wonderful coaches and teammates behind that shot .

the game was not won in a shootout . it was won with the years of commitment and hours of dedication and constant pursuit of improvement . {wacy arndt}

from Isaac playing his first hockey game ever in january of 2019 to being given the opportunity to end the game on his senior night with that shot . . . i could not be more proud of what that really means .

and our miles city generals ended this season 20-0 !!!! this team! these coaches! this is an amazing thing to be a part of !!

{also - thanks so much to the friends who got video and pictures for me! Miles City Sports Photography, Misty Steadman, Quinn Rogers, Jennifer Muscha's kiddo, Linda Mehlhoff Looman - you all are fantastic!!}

february practice :: four

good morning from my tiny office

sun shining in the window, coffee in my cup, cozy crew neck and my school spirit shoes making for comfortable working attire, music softly playing, taking a few minutes to just write

i think that i want to have a record of these days - and that is what my blog has been so often. a window into my days, a window into my thoughts, a window into what matters to me in the moment {and a place to return, to see how far i've come}

i got through ordering the pictures the other night. and i have them all sorted - isaac helped me. i started laying out the collage for the board last night. he'll help me make final decisions this evening and we'll put it together - and have it ready to display at dinner on thursday night - and then at the game on friday night. 

this is proving to be an exercise - this practice that i am working at - this writing. this morning i am feeling my adhd - i started organizing my desktop, then realized that i wanted to write this, then wanted to get music going, then texted maddie, then wrote on my to-do list, then printed something that i should go get off the printer, and am back and forth to writing this . . . 

the sun is dancing through the leaves that didn't all off the poplar tree that lives outside my window - making some pretty great shadows on my wall, and feeling warm on my shoulders. i think that i will shut off the fluorescent lights and get back to work.

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stuff i like that you might like, too

watching anxious people on netflix - i really enjoyed the book by fredrik backman, and i really like the show - i am watching it in english, but may rewatch in swedish . . . just because i would like to listen to the language it was originally written in

reading about the history of paisley was pretty fascinating

listening to won’t you be my neighbor  by joy ike and company made me smile

learning that the statue of liberty is number 49 on the list of tallest statues in the world and that the tallest are all in asia - see this article for some of the tallest the fifteen tallest statues in the world 

february practice :: three (on the sixth)

right now i am

:: sitting at my kitchen table {and my feet are sort of falling asleep}

:: writing this blog post {earlier i wrote emails and meeting plans. also, i wrote a few lines in my journal}

:: hoping for a few things to go smoothly this month

:: reading all kinds of news {and then thinking long and processing much} and also reading Ceremony by Leslie Marmon Silko

:: sharing instagram accounts by black creatives and authors in my stories all month - accounts i learn from and find beautiful 

:: eating sweet potatoes. so many sweet potatoes. and eating with gratitude and intention

:: drinking coffee {always and ever} 

:: playing catch up. too often. 

:: collecting . . . actually, i have been working at keeping less, collecting less . . . except books. i am always collecting books

:: listening tp such a mix C.R.E.A.M. BB King vs Wu Tang Clan and Honey Hold Me  and New Bold Ruler's Joy and now i just found this playlist and it is what i will be listening to at work tomorrow

:: praying for my kids and my husband and my people while i'm on the treadmill {other times, too, but always when i'm walking}

:: marveling at maddie's artistry {check her work out on instagram @madealineeink}

:: laughing so hard last night when isaac vehemently said, "people who eat cold blueberry bagles with cream cheese are psychopaths" 

:: studying passages where women are and aren't in the Bible . . . Womanist Midrash: A Reintroduction to the Women of the Torah and the Throne by Wilda C. Gafney and so much of Alice Linsley's work have been so amazing and eye-opening

:: feeling very edgy about this month

:: preparing for the ends of things - but every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end

and you, my friends, what's your right now looking like?

a february practice :: two

it is evening. 

i am home alone just now.

there are remnants of the supper i cooked on the stove and dishes on the counters.

{i like it best when ben and i cook together - he mostly does the cooking, i am his sous chef and clean-up brigade - and it all gets done at once and we enjoy a meal together. right now, that is not the way things are alingend. i miss that way of being. we'll get back to it, sometime.}

{maddie came over and chopped and cooked with me last night and we ate together. that was really, really nice. we also did her taxes - and she is pretty stoked about the return she will be getting. sort of a forced savings account - and that worked in her favor this year.} 

i am brewing a single-serve cup of coffee to have with gluten free oreos. i will eat more than one cookie.

my plan for the evening is to send a slew of pictures to the printer, so i can pick them up in the next day or two and put together a board for isaac's senior hockey night. 

in between loading pictures, i will do the kitchen clean-up.

i don't like thinking about this senior night. hockey has been so good for isaac - i don't want to think about high school hockey coming to an end for him. but i also want to make it as really, really nice for him as i can. so, i need to think about it. 

so, i have started the download, upload process . . . and then there will be a bit of editing . . . well, cropping anyway . . . but, this is going to take patience . . . and i just feel jittery.

which is why i am going to multi-task . . . and step away from my laptop to do some dishes. 

i did plug my laptop in, so i won't run the battery down and have the whole thing suddenly go blank on me. so there's that. 

alright - this is what i've got tonight. maybe tomorrow i'll have a happy report about sending the pictures off to the printer. 

i'll end with my long-standing wish for all of us:

go gently, love fiercely, and be wonderful. 

 

a february practice :: one

hello. 

today - first day of february. 

i really want to write through this month. 

this morning, i ate oatmeal with blueberries and drank coffee, of course. 

i erased january from the dry-erase calendar in my kitchen at home and wrote in "February" and numbered the days. i wrote just a few of the events of the month on the calendar, and will write more in this evening.

once at work, i hung up a february calendar on my door and arranged a few happy bits around it. 

i feel some apprehension about this month. there are things to look forward to, but most of what will be wonderful in the moment will also be endings to some of the happiest parts of the last few years for isaac - and for all of us. high school hockey will come to an end with the state tournament the last weekend of this month. 

by the end of this month, i will be one year away from the functional neurological event i lived through last february twenty-second. that feels like quite a milestone. 

this morning, my friend michelle shared a line from a book she is reading - “the beauty of the word sometimes, how sometimes evens us out, keeps us in the comfortable middle rather than dangling on one end of the spectrum or the other, hanging on for dear life.  It helps us escape from the tyranny of black-or-white thinking.” this resonated with me quickly as i read it. i will try to come back to unpacking this a bit sometime this month.

for now, i have work to do - a very full list of to-dos and meetings today and thursday and friday. but i will try to write every day this month. cheers to goal. cheers to hopes. cheers to february.