how is the sky new every moment?
will i always feel awe and wonder at the sky itself, and also all of the things that fly in it - birds and helicopters and airplanes and dragonflies?
what actually is wrong with maddie's knee? the MRI showed all clear - but it is obviously hurt - bruised, swelling, causing pain. will the exercises bring healing?
how in the world has isaac grown almost six inches in as many months?
what does a mama heart do when it feels like just can't stretch any more or break to stretch again?
when will they ever consistently shut off lights and pick up wet towels? will seventeen be the magic age?
seventeen. maddie is going to be seventeen in six days. some days that is a statement that i believe to be true. other days it is a question - another one that stretches my heart.
seventeen??? and fifteen and a half??? questions and statements. belief and disbelief. pride and joy.
how is it the beginning of september? but how is it only the beginning of september? january was ten years ago, but june was just yesterday. what is time anyway?
how long is sixteen days? will the rest of this stretch go quickly? or drag and drag? at least this time we are in the same time zone. our days track together on my clock.
is some of the smoke in the air here from the fire you are on there? even if it's not, i'll breathe deep when i step outside and imagine that what fills my lungs came to me from where you are.
how many lifetimes have we actually lived apart? and how many lifetimes do we squeeze into the days that we are together?
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some of these questions have answers, and some of these questions are to be treasured and pondered in my heart.
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