saturday: i sat down to help her with spanish. she pulled up the assignment. i looked up "present progressive participle in spanish" and found an understandable page. her eyes filled with tears. and she said, "mom, i'm usually so good at school. but i don't teach myself. i want to learn and understand chemistry and geometry and spanish. this is so, so hard." i helped her think of sentences while tears streamed down her cheeks. i hope we did the assignment correctly.
sunday: he wanted help with english. we went from a reading comprehension piece about jackie robinson to one about thesus and the minotaur. his assessment question answers contained sentences like, "he is strong and stubborn, and he is pretty lit." also, i wish i could remember some specific examples of how he expressed his thoughts about jackie robinson. he has such a great perspective of people. if there are more people his age who think the way he does, there is hope for a brighter, more equitable future.
monday: his sister didn't want to wait three minutes for him, so i drove him to bible study. and really, i didn't mind. the sky was all kinds of amazing. so after i dropped him off, i drove up out of the river bottom, parked, stood in the wind and meadow lark song, drank in the beauty, and took pictures in every direction.
also monday: i decided that the weekend was so perfect, i was just going to claim sunday as pretend-mother's-day. thankfully, my three agreed. and we had one of my favorite days. yard-work, and vehicle maintenance, loading up refuse to take to the dump, digging in the soil to set the new plants they bought me, supper on the grill, sunshine and a wild storm and a gorgeous sunset, a campfire to sit around in the darkness, and cashew ice cream with coffee.
tuesday: it is hard to reconcile what i see in our little corner of the world with what i read in the news from other corners of the world. everything feels juxtaposed, dystopian, not-quite-real. not a single case of covid-19 in our county or the surrounding counties. i am so grateful. i'd like to think that by shutting down, by staying home, by our essential businesses going into cleaning and sanitizing over-drive, that we have done something right, that the stay-home directives have provided positive outcomes.
also tuesday: he drove to the dump and we emptied the bed of his pickup. he'll soon have his license and then i'll only go along if he invites me. this feels both wonderful and strange.
wednesday: we got to spend forty-five minutes in the truck with him mid-day. seems like that should have been serendipity. but sometimes, a tiny bit of time is harder than none at all. someone was feeling that today.
thursday: i have been reading about so many topics. i want to understand so much. i want to love so many.
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one of my favorite blogs is back: habit blog
also, it's friday and the sun is shining and i'm going to spend the weekend with ben