somewhere, not here,
and now, we know where the somewhere will be!
i can finally tell you all!
{some images i found on google images for camp crook, south dakota}
the position Ben accepted: Lead Range Technician (Lead Wildland Firefighter), with the Eastern Montana/Dakotas District Office, Division of Fire Management
Duty Station: Camp Crook, South Dakota.
*we are like merry floatsam in a choppy sea
life is calling, changes are coming
the murk of the past few years is clearing
and we are beginning to have a sense of direction*
back in march, i wrote in my journal
that state of disconnect
i've been there so many times
i'm there now
i feel it
that we are going
that we will leave
i'm thinking about who might live in our apartment
who might play our piano
who might think about us when we are gone
and i know
that if the news is no
i'm going to have a hard time
reconnecting
and waiting for the next disconnect
then, where will we go and when will we go?
we don't really know
we'll make it work, we always do
then, we are not going to Wrangell, Alaska
i tried to not really show or say
just how disappointed i really am
i tried to play it off:
it's an island
it's so isolated
it's damp and cool and cloudy
it's so far away . . .
from everyone and everywhere
but also:
it would have been a permanent job for ben
it would have been an adventure
there is ocean
there are mountains
it is not here
"a new life on a new shoreline"
it would have been soon
we are not going
. . . i do trust God for what is best
disconnect . . .
reconnect . . .
on april 27 i wrote
i need rest and life-giving words (not sad/hard stories every day)
and fresh air and laughter -
so - that's what i'm headed toward
and on april 29
now that we have our apartment even more cozy and making sense
- and i sort of reconnected -
BEN got a PERMANENT job!!!
in Camp Crook, SD
so, we will move into a 3-bedroom, 1500 sq ft townhome
and make a new place cozy
(and i can take my piano with)
this place will soon be in the rearview mirror -
we ARE heading west!
we really are!
disconnect here, so we can reconnect there . . .
we have a place to go!
{and i am so very proud of my husband. so very proud.}
*with a nod to the noisy plume