so. i disappeared. from this space.
things are changing.
and it's mostly good.
but sometimes it is really hard. (that view - of all the trees - i miss that view.)
the house is almost empty. (the brown couch and chair, the rug - among other things - are gone.)
the apartment is full.
we are getting settled. (i'll show you around soon.)
friday and saturday we'll tie up loose ends at the house. and we'll have a BIG bonfire.
we started school work on september 30. and it's going well. we're settling in to a rhythm for here i think.
we are discovering that isaac mixing up b and d isn't just a fluke . . . and i'm starting to learn about dyslexia and how i can best help . . .
it's so helpful to know what one is up against . . .
we are not going to say can't, just we have to work harder.
on friday last i fell asleep at 7 pm. with a small interruption of about 2 hours for doing the paper route, i slept 11 hours. i think i had hit a wall.
i am learning things about myself.
i absolutely love our dog. (i wasn't ever going to be a dog person.)
i do much better in small spaces. (i feel more in control. more at peace.)
i love being able to walk to the things we have to do.
i am so ready to be settled. done with the sorting and the selling.
i am so, so, so grateful for ben, maddie and isaac. i can't even begin to tell you how grateful i am for our relationships with each other, nor will i ever be done telling you.
i am also grateful for this space and for all of you who read and hang in here with me through thick and thin. you make my days brighter. you encourage me to look for the bits of sunshine.
i'll keep looking.
love, ~e