i am feeling so disjointed
one minute i feel so at home. i breathe a deep sigh of relief and look around our home - our home! - and feel so at peace.
another minute i see all the things left to do to make it really settled: the school-room to set up, the curtains to be sewn, the shelves to be hung, the piles of "scrap" wood outside to be sorted and stored away, the trim around the doors to be painted, the sewing room to unpack and set up so i can sew said curtains and couch pillows and pants for my girl and . . .
i have so much to be grateful for.
so i think of the gifts and thank-yous and care packages that i want to spend time on and send off.
the friends i want to spend time with, in person or on the phone or through the mail.
the writing that i want to do.
the school-work that needs to be studied (both mine and my kiddos').
the decisions about sunday mornings that are weighing heavily on our minds right now.
wanting to be here. present. in this moment.
the blogs i want to read.
the blog posts i want to write.
the job application that i need to fill out. yes. a job application.
a home that begs to be stayed home in and enjoyed.
i know that this is all going to ease. but in the meantime . . . well. i'm going to keep focusing on the things that are done. the things that are good. the things that are lovely. and i will pick away at the rest. to make them done and good and lovely. and i'll be here. as often as i can be. to share a little bit of sunshine with you all.
thanks for hanging in here with me/us through all of this. you all make it a little easier. and i so appreciate you. thank you.