tiny drops of rain
Ben out cutting wood
kiddos napping
me, thinking
lots of mulling over, lately
lots of talking with Ben
are we doing all that we can
with our lives?
what would we most like to do?
a question from my aunt
last winter
if you had a gazillion dollars
what would you do?
and a pendant from a dear friend
live the life you love
love the life you live
maybe it's being almost 30
maybe it's watching our kiddos grow
maybe it's reading
and listening
the message that keeps coming through
don't waste your life
how to live a life
that's about people
about souls
about the tangible and intangible
that will last
what are the desires of our hearts?
how do we carry those out?
how do we do it
so we can look back
when we are old
and say
we didn't waste it
we spent it and stretched it and filled it up
we gave and we loved and we emptied
only to be filled over and over
as earthen vessels
filled and emptied and filled
being used for that which we were made
until that day when we are worn out
and called home
we long to look back and say
we didn't waste the life we were given
we used it wisely and fully
encouragement to my heart
we are talking out a plan
Ben and I
a plan that we pray will use up our life
fully and wonderfully
a plan for a life
full of intention
and meaning
love and life
connection and interaction
with the Creator and the created
right now
it's a bit of a blur
logistics, plans, ideas . . .
but it's what's in my head
and on my heart
lately, I've been so tired
so overwhelmed
with all of it
everything that Ben and I do
everything we'd like to do
but never seem to have time for
but this talking with each other
this soul-searching
this idea that we can make something more
of our life together
has opened up a pin-prick of light
stable and true
through the blur
at the end of my tunnel
and his, too
I think we are on to something
Pray for us? (if you are the praying sort)
and I will continue to share
my heart here,
knowing that in the putting together of words
and thoughts
there is hope and encouragement
to be found and had and shared
seeking always for the sunshine
E